If Only You Knew : Josephine Publishing : 9780986496325 : 0986496324 : 10 Dec 2015 : In the spring of 2001, 19-year-old Katrina Wahl told her parents that she was considering suicide: "There are only two things holding me back from taking this - the easiest path. The first is the end itself. I don't want it to be messy or unduly painful - or, what's worse - unsuccessful. I would want it to be quick and easy. Less for people to take care of afterwards. "The second hesitation factor is friends and family. I don't like to think of how they'd feel after hearing the news. I don't want to hurt them. What would people think? They would probably wonder what on earth could have ailed me so much that I would actually end my life over it. They'd say, 'There's no reason for it. She had a very good, loving, supportive Christian upbringing and a marvelous family. She was even a Christian herself. Went to church regularly, got good grades, was a hard worker. What went wrong?'" Seven months later, Kat