if tears were prayers, a life with dissociative identity disorder : Hwc Press, LLC : 9781948088992 : 1948088991 : 17 Mar 2021 : "What is wrong with me?" Emma had a loving husband, a great job, and young children she enjoyed. So, why was she losing time? And waking up in strange places with no memory of the past hours or days? What happened during those times she couldn't remember? Why were there voices speaking at the edge of her consciousness, just out of sight? In if tears were prayers, Emma paints the gripping tale of living with Dissociative Identity Disorder, sharing vivid experiences in a way that stays with readers long after the last page. Through memories that shift fluidly through both time and perspective, she shares the struggle to understand her condition, pieces of the childhood horrors and betrayal traumas that triggered the protective labyrinth of her mind, and her gradual acceptance and compassion toward all the parts of her Self.