"Getting Back to Me" : Scottie Madden : 9780692541777 : 0692541772 : 10 Nov 2015 : The realtime account of the coming out of a respected adventure survival filmmaker, taken from her journal entries as she leaves behind fear and "white male privilege" to embrace truth, grace and womanhood. Her gut-wrenching journey of love, acceptance and honesty becomes the ultimate survival show. Scottie didn't make it easy on herself. Like many late-stage trans women, Scottie had made one helluva guy; succeeding as a husband of 25 years, the only son, the big brother to three sisters and the legendary adventurer uncle to their children. Everything in her life screamed Alpha Male. No one could guess that Scottie, a top survival showrunner for Discovery and History Channels, known for leading über-male productions in the world's most dangerous locations, was losing a lifelong battle for her soul. It takes faith and true love in and from her wife, for Scottie to shake off fifty years of expectations fro