A Goodreads Choice Awards NomineeA Junior Library Guild SelectionFrom Jas Hammonds, the award-winning author of We Deserve Monuments, comes an electric, heart-wrenching novel about a teen whose desperation to fit in leads to a dizzying relationship with alcohol-and a poignant journey of self-discovery. "Sensitively wrought and gorgeously written." -Courtney Summers, New York Times bestselling author of Sadie and I'm the Girl It's the summer before college and Blake Brenner and her girlfriend, Ella, have one goal: join the mysterious and exclusive Serena Society. The sorority promises status and lifelong connections to a network of powerful, trailblazing women of color. Ella's acceptance is a sure thing-she's the daughter of a Serena alum. Blake, however, has a lot more to prove.As a former loner from a working-class background, Blake lacks Ella's pedigree and confidence. Luckily, she finds courage at the bottom of a liquor bottle. When she drinks, she's bold, funny, and unstoppable-