'A proper, heart-breaking, global sex-pirate adventure' - Caitlin Moran An utterly gripping read [] just dont miss your Tube stop Sunday Times 'Searingly honest, knuckle-bleedingly raw and very funny' - Jay Rayner 'I LOVED this book [...] stunning' - Liz Jones 'A s*** version of Fleabag' - Ex-boyfriend 'In Bath I lay in a field with headphones on, drunk, and staring at an empty blue sky that reflected nothing of the chaos in the world. Below the fields flashed the seaweed-green of a London train and I imagined my former life at the end of it but felt more like it had been tied to the tracks and careered over at 100 mph.'   After a wild decade of hedonistic city life that veered violently into trauma, Lucy Holden was thrown back down the ladder to her parentshouse in a pandemic which paused the parties and forced her to ask herself how shed become who shed become? Grown-up, broken-down, completely lost, then locked-inLucy realises she cant make it up as she goes along