pFor an instant you think it is temporary blindness, this sudden dark that comes in the middle of a bright afternoon.p pIt emmustem be blindness, you think could the sun that was tanning you have gone out instantaneously, leaving you in utter blacknessp pThen the nerves of your body tell you that you are emstandingem, whereas only a second ago you were sitting comfortably, almost reclining, in a canvas chair. In the patio of a friend's house in Beverly Hills. Talking to Barbara, your fiancee. Looking at Barbara -- Barbara in a swim suit -- her skin golden tan in the brilliant sunshine, beautiful. . . .p p p